It's no fun being on the outside.

I happened again.
It always happens.
It ends up being me and one other person against the world.  I don't want to feel like this.  I wanted to be a family again, but I guess it's just not supposed to be anymore.  It's so fucking hard when you realize that your happiness comes at a price, and sometimes that price is other people's happiness.
I've been trying so hard, but the tears are always following after.
I wanted to be happy with everyone again.
I wanted to be okay with everyone again.
But it's different.
So, so different.
And I can't do it anymore.
I just can't.