This will be temporary,
You will not affect me
in the long run.
It's been a year,
and I'm done.
I'm going to ride it out,
but I'm going to cut it short if it's too long.
I deserve to be a better person,
and I am GOING to do that.
So tonight, I pull the plug.
Tonight I say enough.
I'm done.
I can't stand the way you say things..
You said those things to me.
You held me like that,
You looked at ME that way.
It's even more over than it was before.
There's no chance anymore.
I'm taking her advice and letting the anger take me over.
I'm angry at you.
You helped me make horrible decisions,
and YOU didn't do the right thing,
Especially when we BOTH knew that I couldn't.
I'm going to be ANGRY at you.
My cd is playing in the background right now.
I'm sitting in his room,
on his laptop, typing this.
I'm feeling this here and now.
I'm going to make the right decision right now.
I'm going to feel the way I should have a while ago.
I'm angry,
and this time, I WON'T direct it at myself.
My wrists are safe.
My brain is safe.
I am safe.
And I am protected from your shit for now on.
I'd love to see you try and text me.
I'm going to be a bitch now.
You know what?
You hurt me.
I suppose we're even now?
I'm not going to say we are.
I'm going to say fuck you.
And fuck her too.
((Yay ranting))
Plus, I was just brought some mac and cheese by the boy I love. I didn't know where he went =P
3 comments:
all i hear is blah blah blah we should chill hahha
You're so damn blind.
OH I see, this is a very interesting topic. One of love, and the fight to keep a ex-lover at bay. Well if he ever really knew you, he would know that he is a fool right now. His small tool would not fit your greatness. Alas he finds himself struggling for words. He hears what he wants, because he cannot fathom a world without you J.P.P. So he has found another...who you say does everything better than you ehh? He only tries to entice you with his dark words and thoughtless behavior. Although, his head is filled with worthless words, and cannot compare to that of your true lover. ahh yes he is strong that one, but has flaws like any other human. A man is not a man unless he is truly able to speak his mind. Yes this one who is your...stalker one might call him. He sees you as a way to get what he wants, he plays you, he will destroy you where you go, and whatever you do. Yet you linger to his every word. I see now his tyranny. To spoil your good name, and have you all for himself. Through the devils eyes he sees this treachery. J.P.P. find not solace in my words. These are the words of a fallen angel. A human who has seen the end of time and space as we know it. Yet i have come from that place to give you a small gift. The gift of courage. Fear not the evils of this man. He is as deaf as a nobleman and as blind as a bad. He is not among us who are strong. He is below us, so far below us he is not worthy to clean our shoes. The strong are the survivors of wars and battles. Fear not J.P.P. he is not worth your breath. He means only to break you down until you are nothing more than clay in his hands. Stay as strong as stone.
Sincerely,
A Human With Too Many Forms
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