These words are not my own..

So is it possible to hide subliminal messages within a song, when singing it and placing it in reverse? Can the brain really pick up on those sounds, the noises, and put them together to formulate a phrase or even just a word? For some reason i do not doubt it. Utada Hikaru did this in her song "Sanctuary" and after listening to it multiple times, the reverse version makes a lot of sense to me. When I first got hooked on the song, was in a weird stage for me. i don't really want to get into it here (ask me if you wanna know) But it was at a point in time when the backwards lyrics really made sense to me, and were exactly what I wanted to hear. I'm saddened to say that my free write really didn't consist of me writing, just typing out what i heard and though. I guess songs, even played backwards, help me free write, even if they aren't my own words. Ha ha. oh well.

And it begins AGAIN.
Over more then before.
Passion. Not what i heard.
Not what I believe.
Passion
within the soul.
It falls away.
All gone.
He's strengthened
Why?
He was amazing.
He was everything.
Wasn't it easy?
No.
The battles were hard.
I hear him now.
I hear him calling.
I hear him in my own mind.
Why won't he leave me alone?
And it was real.
And I never knew it.
Break.
Close it.
Just close it.
Live and release.
I hate emotion.
I hate motion.
I hate it all.
Stregthen me.
I need true emotion.
I need more affection that you know.
I need true emotions.
bring the beat up.
too many ups and down.
But he was.
He was.
I need you.
He had poison.
It awakened me.
And i was him.
For that moment.
See i was REAL evil.
I was him.
I FELT him.
He acted selfishly.
Yeah.
And what now?
It was real.
I never knew it.
It burns me.
Hurry.
Failure.
He was so tough,
But now?
Who he shall break?
Not me.
By God, not me.
He was amazment.
He was it all.
He had something more.
Yeah.
And I was him.
I was real eager
I was more then was.
For that moment.
He acted so selfishly.
Why? No.
And it was real.
it was real.
I hope.
Into the sun.
Into the light
Into the now.
Into what i need.
I need it.
Close your eyes.
Just feel.
Your voice.
You brought me back.
These words are not my own.

Anyway, I've started ready another book after finishing the one i stole my Gina. Hey! It was in my locker? What can I say.. But I'm going to go before my computer dies again. Plus, I need sleep.

Until tomorrow,
-JPP