"The Last One
I believe that we all go through relationships in our life for a reason. I believe that each one is meant to teach us lessons. Get us ready for the one were meant to be with. Not everyone will meet and or be with the one that they are destined to be with. I do believe that we have these relationships to get us ready though. I’ve had my share of relationships and heartbreaks, lost hopes and dead end roads. I’ve been down in the depths of depression. I may not of reached the bottom and I’m glad I didn’t make it that far. I consider myself lucky. Anytime I’ve ever said anything about thinking something had felt so right or knowing that someone was the one of just feeling it have all been highly trumped by the feeling I have when it comes to her. It is by far the most indescribable thing In my life. This whole time I thought my lessons in my relationships were to take my time slow down and asses the situation and see it and break it down and just be careful with it. The truth is that’s not me at all. That’s not the type of person I am. This advice I had taken about just waiting and seeing what happens have been taught to me from people who live their lives that way. I don’t live my life that way at all. I move fast. For once in my life I feel like I have finally met someone who has the same mind set as me. She doen’t think I’m moving fast, she doesn’t think me being this creepy type guy in situations is weird. She relates to it all. The things I didn’t want to tell her because I was afraid it would scare her away, I ended up telling her. She had the best reaction in the world. She smiled, she agrreed, she kissed me. It’s like she understands. When two minds coexist in a way that is unexplainable to anyone else but the two of them is the most beautiful thing. It’s an even better feeling. When you know you’ve met someone and you just know for a fact that were meant to meet them in life. And not only meet them for a minute or a day opr a week or a year but for the rest of your life. When you know and you feel this thing between the two of you, when you just automatically understand what the one person is trying to say when they can’t seem to explain it to you is magical. It’s amazing. It’s beautiful. I’ve never had this compaitability with someone before in my life. She makes me feel amazing inside. Even knowing her past it doesn’t scare me one bit. Because when I look into her eyes, when I venture deep into them I know what they say. They say I want this, I want to make this last. They say I’m tired of my past happening and repeating. She will break that. She will get throguh that and make this last. I know it. I can’t tell the future in anyway at all. When you know something you know and that’s that. She has every feature I have ever wanted in a woman from phsical all the way to mental. She wants to hang out with me, She doesn’t want to leave, she kisses me. She hugs me. For once in my damn life I’m not the one putting in all of my fucking effort. For once In my life I found someone who feels the same about me as I do about her. We meet in the middle. We are both trying. We are both giving effort, we both want this. And that blows my mind. I was always the one saying cute things giving 150% in it all. My end of the rope was always bigger. Not anymore. And as weird as it may seem I’m completely okay with it. There are so many things she does or says to me and it just blows my mind because no one has done or said those things to me, It’s always the other way around. I know this is all probably out of order and may not make much sense. Like I said its a feeling that’s indescribable. So I tried my best. I never want her to go, I never want her to leaver my side. I could hold her, kiss her, love her, be with her, talk to her, hold hands with her, be with her, forever. Andnot for even one second would I be bored. Not for even one second would I feel like I would want to be anywhere else. Not for one second would I feel like I want something else. I feel like what I had been through had all been leading up to her. As crazy as it may sound it’s the truth. From the day I met her I could tell we were going to be together at some point in life. The day I first met her I had a feeling rush through my body that I had not felt before. It was the craziest thing I had ever felt in my life. She makes me happy. And I make her happy and I fucking love that."
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