this must be it, welcome to the new year.

I have been feeling lonely.

No one texts me back.

No one asks to hang out.

I am alone.

I have the girls at school, but only during school hours.

I have you, but only when you want me.

I am alone.

I don't want your pity. 

I don't want your sympathy.

I just feel you should know.

I do not feel loved.

Especially when you text her telling you that you love her.

Fine.

You're allowed to love.

But I'm allowed to be upset.

You don't tell another female friend you love her.

It's inappropriate and incorrect.

I deserve more respect than that.

You can talk to her for hours and hours, 

but the majority of texts I get are "oh." and "okay."

What am I supposed to do with that?

You can't do this to me anymore.

I am alone.

And now, I am more alone than ever.

You are not mine.

I am yours, but you are not mine.

This imbalance is driving me crazy.

I want to talk to you and see you and hang out with you and kiss you.

But you only want me when it's convenient for you.

Then you tell me I am too needy and dependent.

I think you'd feel this way if you were in my position.

I hate having to beg for attention and affection.

I know you're busy.

But you aren't too busy to be with her all night.

And I bet you didn't bring homework to do at her house.

So I'm letting you know, this is all I can take.

Not much more.

I tried being mature about it.

But I think that it resulted in naivety.

And that has got to end.

I can't take anymore.