I don't remember exactly what I was thinking earlier.
But I do know that I'm not going to censor myself.
If people can't accept me for me,
Then they aren't worth my time, or effort, or love.
But, moving on from that.
I'm not even confused anymore.
It's such an excellent feeling.
I mean yeah, I still have my anxiety attacks,
But I'm learning to control them.
And it's getting easier,
Because I don't have to reach outside myself anymore.
People care, without realizing that they do, and they help me out.
So, so much.
It's such a wonderful feeling.
I thought that this was going to be a horrible part of my life.
But it's turned out to be the exact opposite.
I'm doing so much better right now.
It's so much better than just a week ago when I came home,
Plopped all my bags down, and just stared at my wall.
Wishing I could cry.
But I couldn't cry.
I couldn't do it.
I don't know why my eyes have been so dry through all of this.
It's so fucking good to be okay with myself.
Even if not completely, I'd say at least 70%,
And that's so much better from the negative percents I was before.
AH.
I'm just in such a good mood right now.
I don't even know why.
:D
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