If I give you all of me,
I'm giving up.
If i don't give you all of me,
I'll be failing you.
I can't decide which one's more important to lose.
I can't decide.
I can't let myself need you.
But it's almost too late for that.
I don't want to keep being stupid.
I don't want to keep making bad decisions.
I want to not hurt anymore.
I want to not feel terrible about it.
I want to make someone happy.
In all honesty, I want it to be you.
You've opened up to me,
But I'm afraid to let you see everything inside my head.
I'm so, so ugly.
You call me beautiful,
But I don't think you really know.
You don't see it.
You don't get it.
And that worries me.
I'd rather be ugly as fuck on the inside and pretty inside.
But it's starting to reverse.
So much has changed about me over the course of high school.
I'm starting to not like it.
But I know I can't regret it.
And I'm caught between the anger, hate, happiness, and beauty.
I used to be so concerned with doing the right thing for everyone and everything else..
But I want to do the right thing for me now.
And everything collapses when I think about it that way.
I feel so selfish, wanting to be happy and okay with myself.
I feel like it's wrong of me.
I don't want to be confused anymore.
I only know a few things right now.
I know I like you, quite a bit.
I know you like me, at least a little.
I know that I'm worried.
I know that you're confused.
I want there to be a beautiful ending to this.
I want to be happy,
And I want to make you happy.
But that's all I know.
I don't know how to put any of this into progress.
Why can't I just be your girl?
If you want me, all of me,
Then I need you to prove it.
Please?
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