9 Secrets.

I think it's a good day to tell some of my secrets.
The only people who read this that care about me already know.
Or at least i assume.
1.  I have anxiety attacks almost every day.  Living is super difficult sometimes.
2.  My carefree, dumb, naive personality is just a mask.  It's meant to fool you.  Don't think I'm unaware of what you say when I'm sitting right next to you.
3.  I am overly critical of myself, but not only that, of other people too.  I wouldn't have any friends if my thoughts could be heard.
4.  I think about all the terrible things that could happen to me at any given moment.  Sometimes I even wish they'd happen.
5.  The same friend that told me I've saved him a few times, has saved me as well.  I don't think he even knows.
6.  ED-NOS.  Look it up.
7.  I still think about him, (and sometimes her) every single fucking day.
8.  I don't let go of things.  Ever.  If you've ever made any cruel comments to me, just joking around even, chances are, it still floats around my head whenever I see or talk to you.
9.  Deep down, I'll always feel like I don't belong.  And I know that I don't.  I think it's pretty obvious.  But I've got to do the best I can with myself, considering the great group of friends that seemed to have accepted me.