Will you?

Will I still cry, when there's no one to see me?
Will I still scream, when there's no one to hear?
Will I still try, when there's nothing to be won?
Truthfully, I don't think I will.

I'm falling, and no one can catch me anymore.
Too much has changed and too much has been revealed.
There's too much involved to solve the problem.
There's too many memories fogging my logic.
Logic I never even had..

I can't make the right decision.
Everything's okay when I act in the present.
But when I step out and think about what's really going on,
Or about what really happened,
I can't do it.
I freeze.  I give up, and I give in.
I go to where I feel safe, letting no one in.
I don't have that ability anymore.
He won't let me.
He is what forces me to come out when I'm most vulnerable.
"This is no way to live, Jenna."
And he was right.

We only have one life.  Make the best of it, right?
It's really hard to do that when you're afraid of every single step,
Of every single twist and turn.
I hate feeling left behind,
I hate it even more when I know it's my fault.
I'm slipping even further.
From him too.

Who's going to catch me when he's gone?
Who's going to be there?


No I never told you, I just held it in.