Please don't leave.  Please don't join the army.  Please don't go and get yourself killed.  I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you.  I can't imagine life without you.  I seriously need you.

These things I can't tell you..
The words just won't come out.
But I need you so bad right now.
I hate to catch myself from crying everytime you bring it up.
I haven't talked to anyone yet,
Except Arlen.  But he doesn't know how to help.
I just don't want something to happen to you.
I'm terrified.
I don't want you to think this is your last option.
It's not.  It's not.  It's not.
Please?
I just wish I could tell you.
It scares me.
Every time I wake up, it's the first thing on my mind.
That's why I cried the morning I woke up next to you.
I wanted you to ask why.
I wanted to pour my heart and tears out to you.
But I can't.
I have to be the strong one.
It's scary.

Just breathe,

Just breathe.