I can't let go.

I seriously can't.
You're my bad habit.
And I don't want to let you go.
I don't want to see you leave.
It kills me you're still with her.
It makes me jealous.
There.  I said it.
I don't even CARE anymore.
I just want her to know.
That there'll always be someone in the background.
I don't know why.
It'd just be funny, you know.
Because there's ALWAYS someone in the background.
Nothing is ever completely pure.
Nothing.

As for him.
There will always be a N.
There will always be a C.
There will always be a K.
And there will always be an H.
And I can't change that.
No matter how passionately I dislike them for no real good reason.
I just can't see him with her or any of them.
That hurt almost as much as this has.
I still remember his post on face book "Hanging with a cute girl!"
I was your cute girl.
Not her.
Am I replaceable?
I guess I was.
I hope I'm not anymore.
=/

Time for sleep.