What do you need to do to get yourself in a better mood?

Speeding off into the cold, dark night with him,

Sharply turning a corner,

The night blurring into shades of blue,

Snow turning to ice,

Us gliding and him correcting.

‘Keep telling him to stop,

Maybe, eventually, he’ll listen’

The voices in my head chattered away,

But my heart didn’t want him to stop.

There wasn’t much to risk,

And logically I knew that,

But logically, I also knew it was dangerous.

But I didn’t care.

I stopped buckling my seatbelt a long time ago,

I welcome disaster and fate into my life,

With open arms.

Unknowing of the true terror that could follow,

But as my dumb thoughts go,

‘What happens, happens.’

And finally after reaching your house,

I cursed the other for actually being there,

I’d been hoping you’d lied to get me to come,

Unsupervised.

But damn you, you weren’t.

‘Intelligence?!  What’s that?’

We sat back and relaxed,

Me, safely a distance away.

I didn’t want to be,

But I don’t quite trust myself yet.

Maybe I should accept the fact, I never probably will.

Maybe.

I relaxed, hoping you forgot about what I said about Gideon.

I didn’t want to have to explain the control you have over me,

Even without the crazy mind control on my neck.

‘Can you say, double meaning??’

Yeah.

Well.  After it ended,

You finally convinced me to join you,

So I sat down,

You rested your head on my shoulder,

And with this, I was content.

At least for now.

I think I can deal with this now.

At least I hope so.

After the clock screamed in my face,

That I have a curfew,

And it cannot be broken,

I forced us to get up and take to the streets again.

This time was worse.

More exciting.

More dangerous.

Less smart.

I think that also describes how I feel around you.

I didn’t want to go home,

And we both knew.

Thankfully,

I ended up home after a few more twists and turns, and spins. 

Goodnight.