“I feel like I wouldn’t like me if I met me.”
I think that describes everything, right about now.
I can’t help but feel jealous.
For all the wrong reasons.
I feel the exact opposite of what I should.
I hate what I should love,
And love what I should at least not want.
But I still do.
And it pisses me the fuck off.
Why can’t I just be happy with what I have?
Why can’t I just deal with the fact that this is how it will always be.
I don’t think I’ll ever be happy.
I don’t think it’s possible.
“I can’t say that I’ll love you forever”
And yet I pretend I will.
I swear I’ve never said anything equal to “Forever and ever, babe.”
I don’t think I ever will.
I feel like I’m too young for all of this shit.
I don’t want to grow up,
If growing up means I have to deal with this shit.
If I could go back a year,
Would I change things?
I don’t know.
Would you?
1 comment:
You will be happy, promise. These things happen, life's a cycle of change. You can rely on change to come, eventually they will turn out right. And it's okay to go crazy like this, you're being a teenage girl. You don't have to grow up yet, but if you weren't acting like a teenage girl now and getting it out of your system, then there'd be cause to worry. Cause if you don't get it out during your teen years, you become one of those creepy 40 year old woman who wear short shorts, bikini tops, too much makeup, excessive jewelry, and pretend they're 16. So live it up, it sucks, but it's okay. You'll grow and learn, just hang on. <3
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