I feel like my soul is being pulled out of my body from behind me. I feel like I’m leaving everything behind. The weird thing is, I haven’t made any changes, or done anything to cause this. Not only that, but nothing out of the ordinary happened. I feel like something’s changing and it scares me. I like who I am, who I was. I worked pretty hard to get there, and this new person emerging is scaring the hell out of me. I want to go back to the quiet girl in the back who cares too much, than become the loud girl in the front who couldn’t care less about what people think of her. I hate this. I don’t know why I dislike the change so much. This change might actually get me places. Maybe that’s what I’m scared about. I don’t have to worry about what people actually thought of me when I didn’t talk at all.. But now they have an actual basis on which they can judge me. My words AND actions will speak louder than my lack thereof. Maybe this is what I need. Maybe this change will help me out.
I think I might start a 39 day blog challenge. I have to write an actual decent blog, for thirty nine days straight. How does that sound? (As if anyone actually reads this. Haha.)
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