It Isn't.

((This isn't going to be artistic. It's my anger just being vocalized.))

I hate it.

I hate it so much.

It's a battle between my head and my heart.

My head wants to know it's wrong and get that I have what I need.

My heart wants all the things it envies and desires.

I want it to end.

I was so, so, SO happy.

Why did it have to change?

I was doing so well..

I hate it.

I can't sneak around behind your back.

It's wrong, and it hurts me to hurt you.

I can't hurt you anymore.

Especially under the almost exact same conditions as last time.

It won't happen again.

I have to stop.

My head and my heart need to get together, and sort some things out.

Please just agree on this:

I love you, and I don't want that to change.